Why is it that I can't learn the first time. I've just been handed a simple challenge and once again failed. Not ten minutes ago I wondered why my Heavenly Father wasn't hearing the pleas of a little girl when I at that moment walked upon and found the item she desired so badly for picture day tomorrow. Listening to her sobing on her bed and thinking WHy does this have to be so tough. Why did I go on a garbage frenzy the last couple of days and think everything had to be in the DI pile or garbage. Why will He not let us find this expensive hair bow. But I've thought about this alot lately and thought maybe I had grown up and that if it really was my lot to have a HARD trial I would do it with a smile and not question Him. I told a friend just yesterday who is in the thick of something hard for her that one day she look back on this time and think, "Wow, I thought that was hard!"
I think I been given a couple of scares (or situations maybe better ) to see how Drew and I together would handle it but once its over and I know we are free and clear did I really appreciate my answer. The gift I was given. Did I or have I done all that I needed to to be truly worthing of that gift. I am grateful that the power to pray and to kneel down and ask a higher power for help is mine. I am grateful we have a plan for us and that this plan allowed me the challenges of losing a baby, look at the possiblility of breast cancer, and deal with every issue under the sun with the twins and come away with two healthy babies. I am grateful for the whisperings of the spirit to tell me how truly and completly blessed I am even though I don't always fall to my knees in a prayer of gratitude. It's just to bad I always make something so simple seem so Hard!